I have been sober for two days now. I find it very helpful to use stories from other alcoholics to reflect on my own problem. In the same way you can be okay for a night with one or two beers, I can have a glass of wine with dinner, go to bed, and have a great day ahead of me. But, it's the nights when one glass turns into two, three, four, 2 bottles when I find myself morphing into a completely different persona, doing things I would never in my sober mind think of doing, and ultimately embarrassing myself and my family. I realize now that I can't have "just one glass", not now, and not ever, I am physically and mentally incapable. One night of being a controlled drinker will not make you or me stronger, but everyday as a controlled alcoholic will lead to a healthier, more productive and serene life. Good luck to you.