ya know smacked is right...you have to want to quit more then you want anything else. however for me what made me want to quit more then anything else was the living in fear of losing my son to my addicitons. how that would affect him was a horrible thing...also, i got so tired of it, i wanted to be happy and not live in bondage to my disease. Another thing for me to was that i lost my husband to his disease, my son lost his daddy, and it was so unexpected that i realized it can happen to anyone...ypu can die in your disease and leave behind those who love you the most....stay strong and dont give up!