Hello Impurrfect,
It has been almost 10 days of total calamity. Let's see...
New washer I didn't expect to purchase. (kaching)
New washer overflowed, as drain in wall to septic was plugged with something... (kaching)
My email was hacked, and no one told me. (I guess I was sending ads for Viagra, sex toys, etc. Century Link/Qwest reset all passwords. ahhhh Grrrrr...)
HATE new washer. It's a high efficiency which means it cleans dirty clothes with 2 drops of water. (Thanks to our government).
Have to get a new wood stove. (kaching kaching kaching)
So, I am SMOKING alot of CIGARETTES. I do feel it would be great to be put into a coma, to forget all that is and has happening.
I'd be a terrible alcoholic or drug addict. I'd be using all these things for an excuse. I drink decaffeinated coffe, by the pot with creamer.
My other vice (only when I go to town) is decaf coke/pepsi. Oh yeah, and diet too cause I need to lose about 25 pounds. (not complaining)
After the flood from the laundry last week, I had 2 giant dehumidifiers, and I believe 7 commercial/drying fans going, and could not sleep for about 4 days. Now I can't seem to get a good night's sleep though they are gone.
Oh yeah....My kitchen island top cracked from using a crock pot for 7 hours and apparently that can be fixed for (kaching)...what d'ya' know!
So, I am hoping I might remember to purchase a lottery ticket. LAUGHING! I don't even buy those.
Importantly, I so appreciated seeing your message to me. I am so in awe of you, and what you have been through. You know what? WE ALL make MISTAKES. Some don't lead to addictions or crimes, etc., so you've had to deal with something many of us can only imagine.
Please remember, you are not bad or unworthy of anything. You are amazing, considering what you've been through.
I love that you were raised to say "I love you" at the end of your conversations. Someday, remind me of a story about this.
I will talk/write soon, when I am not such a mess...which I am right now from stress.
I am not a Bible thumper, but I would like to know if you are a believer in Christ. If so, I just finished Matthew, and reading Mark each night. I read the Bible years ago, but found the words are sinking in, and in a good way. Let me know if you're interested. Don't worry, I am not talking about Bible study here!
Deb