Thanks all-
Shannon, I honestly have been doing a good job (I think) of not panicking... But I haven't paid my mortgage this month, my student loans are waaaaay past due, my credit cards are past due-- you get the idea. I have been staying in the day and taking it day by day, getting creative about what I apply for, who I talk to etc...
Like you I was raised to catastrophize everything. I've been really making headway in that dept I thought. But I feel like I am now at catastrophe level. Even substitute teaching is competitive. There's nothing out there and it's terrifying. I'm just not sure what to do anymore.
Any suggestions are more than welcome. Perhaps someone else has thought of something I haven't.
I even just cold emailed someone in a district who coordinates the alt ed programs and tried to "sell" myself to him as someone he may want to meet. I'm networking with everyone I ever knew professionally and .... well, it's just not going well.