I just wanted to write to say that I am overcome with respect for you. I wish I had half your good sense when my baby was born. I was a full time graduate student, AH lost his job a couple of weeks before the baby came (6 weeks early) and steadily drained my bank account unbeknownst to me in the next few months he was unemployed. I rarely felt like he was any help at all, and in my less forgiving moments actually felt like he ruined to whole newborn baby experience for me. I know you can do this. I know you will figure out daycare and working. You have already taken the hardest step. For what it is worth, there are a whole passel of folks here who totally believe in you!