Hugs and congratulations !! my sister had a difficult time after the c section but 3 months later she is feeling much better, I hope you improve very fast and feel better soon.
Yes you deserve bidirectional relationships, I am learning that too, and if people canīt give me what I can give them, I can decide not to include them in my life, or limit their appearances, after all its MY play and I am the director..
More hugs to you.