Surprisingly (or maybe not actually) I am fine today... I was pissed and upset with AH's words the other day and I said it aloud here (and talked to my T) and for me that's a cathartic way to let it go. I suppose there are different ways that work for us all to "let go of things" and I've realized that that's my way.
I kept my life with AH a secret for so long that there's something empowering about saying it aloud (even if it's on line!) and for me, 40 yrs into this life of mine, I've finally figured out that that's the best way to let it go (well, that and running!)