Thank you everyone for your advice and words! I know its staring me straight in the face and I think I realized it's over a long time ago. It's just really hard, hes everything I could ever want in a guy, he treats me with respect, kindness and love (when he isn't using) and I know how great he can be when he is sober and I think that's what I keep holding onto. But I think somewhere deep down inside me I know it will not work. Just got a lot of things to think about before making my decision. We live together, and I don't have a job right now. Our lease is up in October. I think once I get a job and be able to support myself it will be easier to leave. My life is revolving around HIS addiction...always thinking about it, never being able to leave him alone, and its tearing me up. I know what I have to do, it's just a matter of time.