Im not going to judge what you said and did.
I'm going to encourage you to not beat yourself up the rest of today over what was done yesterday.
Please forgive yourself. Love yourself. And allow yourself to learn life's lessons each and every day.
Is this a train wreck? Can't say. But I find it best not to borrow from tomorrow.
Stay in today.
I like it when our fellow member Freedom reminds me of this:
If you have one foot in the past,
and one foot planted in the future;
you are in the perfect position to whizz all over your today.
(((gentle hugs)))