Yellowbirdy,
I know this is a stressful time for you, but please slow down, take a few breaths, and just try and breathe...............
Please, let's put your safety and well being first. Do not second guess this situation. Your husband is violent and out of control. This is about his unacceptable actions. Clearly, you did not do anything to cause this. Let him own his actions.
Embrace this court order, it truly is your chance to regain control of your life. Sending you a hug)))) We are here for you. Keep posting........