Originally Posted by
YellowBirdy 
I think I am having extreme difficulty dealing with this because I have not had any closure. I did not know that would be the last time I would see him and it's like he died.
It is a death, a death of hopes and dreams that I am sure you had for the marriage.
I sometimes wonder if there is even such a thing as closure. Pain is pain, and there is no getting around that.
I mourned for a long time after I left my violent and abusive EXAH.
Unfortunately I short-circuited the grief process and jumped into another dysfunctional relationship. I did that off and on for 11 years and when I finally hit a codependent bottom, the grief was still there and I walked through it finally.
Be gentle with yourself. Keep posting. We care!
