We would not have brought our lives *here* if this is where we were not meant to be.
Your life isn't ruined. Your life is gifted with lessons.
He was a temporary teacher.
You are beginning to see yourself through his teachings.
You are learning to see who you want to (and don't want to) be.
You are learning to see all the greatness you deserve.
You are learning you can choose how to handle hard times.
You can handle them with a little more ease - a little more grace - you can see that is possible (in your seeing your own behavior you didn't like).
These are gifts.
It may come as a surprise, but you are doing a great job.
Keep at it and hold yourself ever so gently.
Peace
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