Back on an even keel now after recognizing fully the AV as the source of discomfort within and my true self as the feeling of liberation from all of it.
I haven't followed the RR book's advice on everything. In fact I've been a little too forthcoming that I'm a teetotaler and there are people seemingly queuing up to mock me for it.
The best thing so far is that I can just skip over the 'Drinks' section in travel guides and not feel a thing.
Still counting the days but I feel the pull of each day is weakening and I'm settling.
I can't believe I let the chocolate liqueur thing almost destroy me mentally though. I hadn't heard from the AV in weeks almost!