It's really good that you posted this and recognize what is happening. I wish I had and then maybe I wouldn't have relapsed the last few times. I went on autopilot almost every time. I've had more negative thoughts these past few days and I think it's because I'm dealing with a lot of people and it's creating anxiety for me. I feel like I'm not measuring up and it's making me not like myself, not want to be around myself. Just like you, I've been bringing up old negative memories. The one thing that is helping this time around is knowing that it will pass if I don't fuel it.
This post and the responses have really helped. Thanks.