Well, your situation certainly supports how important it is, when one is in jeapordy, is to call 911 and follow through with a RO.
I do not judge you or your decisions, I only have the best interest of your children at heart.
I know that you are doing the very best you can for your children, for that, I have an immense amount of respect for you. As a child, my considerations were never of any importance to my mother.
Keep moving forward, left, right, left, right.