Need to tlk
Hi there friends....I have to spill tonight.
I have alot on my mind lately and tonight, I am finaly filled with anxiety. They say sometimes after the crises you react. Well, its been a snow ball here.....
First off My A who has been sober for 2 years this August is still doing great. Although within the last 4 weeks I have had to rush him to emergency twice. At first they thought he had kidney stones.....and sent him home, then two weeks later I rush him back agian with abdominal pains again. Long story short, He was diagnosed with an inflamed pancreas. They don't know what is causing this. He was very ill, but refused to stay in the hospital, and signed himself out. They arranged for more tests and he had them done yesterday. There worried it may be cancer. They did biopsys, and scopes. Now we have to wait for 2-3 weeks until the Dr. comes back off holidays to find out the results.
So, I know there is no point in freaking out, we will deal with the outcome when we know it. But this hole thing has been a huge shock to me and to him and it has scared the bleepers out of both of us.
My holdays were this past week, and although we had this loaming over our heads and had to return home early to have the tests done on Friday. We had a wonderful time.
We had an opportunity to visit out oldest son, whom we don't get to see very often due to the distance. It was great to see him, we really miss him, and hate him being so far away. Thats all fine, but then we discovered that he is going through a rough time right now too. He recently ended his long term relationship with his girlfriend. And he moved out of there apartment and is staying with his boss until he finds another place....so that has me worried, hate to see him in pain. He seems fine and assures me he's happy and feels like he's done the right thing, so fine....thats on my mind aswel..
Then, now, my middle son....who just turned 18 and moved out and hasnt spoken to his dad since march.....has decided that he wants to move back home.......This has me worried on many levels......
His dad and him really don't get along, and Im affraid that won't be any different.
Yet all I can do is let him come home.....and hope for the best...
So my mind is full......and im back to work on monday....please let sunday last.
Thank you for listening, sorry about the novel......