Your attitude, not your aptitude, will determine your altitude
Join Date: Dec 2006
Location: Oxnard (The Nard), CA, USA.
Posts: 13,893
Do seek some kind of assistance Scrubmuncher. Your not a loser. You have an illness that needs quick attention. The hospital can help you get settled, as it did with me when I lost all hope. There is a way out of suffering, please seek it out.