Thank you for the support everyone. I feel like I am sliding backwards because before the surgery I was doing well in my goals to detatch. Now, because I am bedridden, all I have to do is watch tv, be online, read and just be alone with my thoughts and dwell. He continually tells me I am being stubborn by not taking his help but I told him "You threw coffee on me the morning of my surgery as I walked in to get a hysterectomy because I have cancer because of what you passed to me, that is not normal or healthy. I am not going to rely on you anymore." I felt good telling him that but walking the walk is the hardest part. I know I will be better once I am more mobile. As I stated in previous posts, I am starting back to school in fall semester, soon...so that will take my mind off and keep me busy. Just getting through these hard nights when I am in emotional and physical pain are the worst...