getting worse than before
so now i've involved his family. the mother and sister came today to try and get him to go to detox again. but he refused and treated them with the same disrepect and cruelty as he does me. now they see what i have been going through. i felt guilty last night for upsetting his elderly mom but now i don't anymore..... its time they all knew what their son/brother is up to and how he has ruined his marriage and is life. he has a blood disease and drinks heavily and is on the road to an early grave. am i mean when i have thoughts wishing it would happen....just so that i can live again?
my bag is all packed and ready. its just getting that first foot out the door. i worry about my pets that i can't take with me.... what do i do for god sakes,what do i do???