Welcome, cantdothis - I felt so hopeless and helpless too when I realized I couldn't stop drinking, no matter how much I wanted/needed to. I'm glad you're reaching out - it's not an easy thing to do.
Alcohol creates so much anxiety and depression that it just makes us want to drink more. You really need to get it out of your system in order to feel good again emotionally. If you're a daily drinker, it's best to get some medical help to detox. Do you have any support (like family) that can help with your child? Can you get to a doctor?
You're not alone. We all know what it's like. Keep reading and posting - you really can get sober and have a better life, even though it doesn't feel like that right now.
