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If I see one more syringe or burnt spoon, I will totally lose it. But if I leave, he'l only get worse and I'm terrified that he will overdose. If I stay, I'm enabling him to continue banging the oxys. If I tell his parents, they will disown him and he wont have a family. If I tell his doctor, he'll hate me and I will lose him forever.
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If you stay he will most likely get worse and overdose is a constant risk for addicts. Absolutely nothing you can say or do is going to make him clean or cause he to continue to spiral. You are not that powerful. None of us are.
You have been with this guy for about a year. I hear you say his choices and behaviors make you feel betrayed, humiliated, and worthless. When we feel this way we are ususally making someone else's addition all about us. In other words, it's about ego and fantasy that if he loved me he would snap out of it. If our love could cure this, none of us would be here.