I can totally relate to looking at my two little babies and crying...knowing that they are such a blessing...and that even though it is hard, I am doing what is right for them. It has taken me a LONG, LONG time to let go of my marriage...I've fought with myself, my morals, and my beliefs....but now I realize that to do what is right for myself and my kids..I must move on. I read on here a few minutes ago something that really helps me, that is something like - loving what someone could be, or th epotential of what they could be, is not a marriage. This exact idea really helps me cope with what I had to do! Good luck to you...hang in there....