The End...
I haven't posted in a while because I have felt some shame/guilt over not listening to people on here asking me why I was still stuck, why haven't I moved on....and I still don't have the answer to why before, however I am not at the END of this relationship, feeling stronger and more confident. I have started reading Why Does he Do that....again, and this time, it has made his behavior so clear to me. And of course as expected his changes have never lasted - most recently going to a counselor...stopping drinking*which I think lasted about 5 days. But I am over it all...I am done with it all...the empty promises, the false hopes in the reality I thought I could create, the fear of what will happen.......it is over. I am sad, hurt, angry...and a lot more that I can't define right now. It has been a LONG LONG ride....but I am getting off for good.