That's the hard part for me because our vacations together were wonderful because he didn't drink around me. It was when he was home alone and I saw him actually "drunk" 3 times in a year and a half. My thing is 1) I can't stand the smell; it makes me physically ill and 2) it changes his personality. He's not the same man that I fell in love with. He's not mean or abusive. He has always been very good to me and my son. I can't put my finger on it but I know it bothered me.