Husband wants a drink ... bad
Hi all!
So, we are on day 18 and things have been going well. Today is a doozy, though. Husband says he wants a drink, BAD, worse than day 1, 2 and 3 rolled into one. We talked ... about what it was *really* like when he was drinking rather than what he wants it to be like, about what would happen to him if he picked up that drink, about a couple of irrational thoughts running through his head. I felt calm, took nothing personally, no fretting or tears, no following him around to be sure he is OK.
He logged into an online AA meeting (which is on voice/speaker) so asked me to leave the room, and he closed the door. Wow, I was fine. Kissed him on my way out the door. I know he may drink, and I think I am OK. I'd be on the couch, but OK.
Right now, though, I am numb. I really have no idea how I feel, not a clue, and it is the strangest non-feeling I've ever had. What does this mean? Is this normal? I'm not one to be over-emotional, but I don't recall ever just not having them.