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Old 07-12-2011, 03:31 AM
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hopeful8523
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Originally Posted by hopeful8523 View Post
Thank you for your comments, really. This website is the only support I have right now. The people reading my posts are the only ones who know what I am going through. None of my family members or friends know. My own boyfriend doesn't even know. His brother is a recovering alcoholic, 6 months sober, so I know if I tell him the truth, he will leave me. I am a horrible person, how can I lie to the most amazing person i've met. He is the best thing that's happened to me, & i'm so scared that if I tell him I've been lying about my drug use for the past year, he'll lose all trust in me. I can't risk that..
If this were the first time Ive 'quit', he would understand and support me 100%. But since he thinks I have been clean for seven months, going behind his back to meet supplyers, lying about where I am and why I have no money. I'd be highly upset if the roles were reversed here
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