Djayr..I remember reading your posts awhile back and want you to know I am also in very similar circumstances. Being attuned to my AW hour by hour mood changes and how it affected me. Anyone living with an alcoholic or drug addict deals with the same issues. I moved in and out many times until it became so unbearable I began to believe life wasn't worth living. Don't get me wrong I'm not talking suicide here I just found I had no joy and all responsibility. I finally moved out and committed to a lease. Got a cat for company and that helped..filed for divorce and going through all that now. You have to DECIDE and do it. Get to the gym and work out and let your family and friends help you. I still struggle with ending a long term marriage but what choice do we have? We CANT live with the drinking