Thanks to everyone for your support today, I'm getting by. It still hurts, a lot, I miss her. But right now I'm letting her live her life while we try to live a normal life with my two younger children.
I'm always going to be there for her if she comes back and wants help trying to get over her problem. Not if she's hammered and naked and just wants a place to crash. I've had enough of that.
I'm about to cry typing this message, it's hard but I really think it's something everyone invovled here needed.