"Love me Not"
I live with a RAH (several relapses and not working any programs).
We are no longer even on talking basis except around the kids due to him saying some really mean things to me. I feel, he doesn't take responsibility for his actions and still outwardly blames me for his past drinking (i know, untrue). He says he has no money to move out and that is the only thing keeping him at the home.
The "point of view from an abuser" fit alot in our relationship, past drinking behaviors and current sober behaviors as well also a narcissistic article fit his behaviors as well.
I started questioning "Did he ever love me" and when asked, he said probably NOT.
How did i MISS this very important part of this relationship?? For 14 years?? I didn't realize that he didn't even LOVE me!!!