Good Morning everyone. It was nice to wake up these responses. I feel better. I have another Alanon meeting tonight. I am going to keep busy this holiday weekend. I guess I am in this mode where I am doing all the right things on the outside even if I'm hurt on the inside. I need to stay away and have no contact and it has to be just a shift in thought. I even decided that when I go out of town I am just going to leave my cell at home so I won't be tempted to engage in any contact whether it be negative or positive. I'm going to grieve for him but its a bonus because he gives me child support from the grave...ha ha ha. Wow, I made a joke! 1st time in days! Its a beautiful day and the first day of my new life!