Thank you. I know I am not all alone. It does sound like we are married to the same man. I try to have a Plan B. I have friends & family that become my Plan B, but sometimes I feel like I am using them when my AH decides to go on a binge. They are all very understanding "sometimes" but I still think they get tired of me and my problem. It is hard to plan anything because you never know what the A is going to do. Like yesterday I thought he was being nasty so he could go on a binge, but he didn't. He was still in a very nasty mood when I got home from work. It was a relief when they called him out to work. He called today and was just as nasty as yesterday. I don't know if he'll go on a binge today, he likes to keep you wondering. He said he was in a bad mood because I try to control him. I do not make any plans that involves him unless its his idea. I don't know what to do anymore.