lady13:
let me just say WOW! our stories are so similar. I can completlety relate to all that you said. Amazing. I too have an AH. I too have 4 children. I too have been put thru the ringer for 10+ years. I too have tried everything (and I do mean everything). I too have threatened for years that I will leave (and have several times ~ each time he seems to get some better and then were off again). I have not gone as far as seperation papers (no such thing where I live). But I did recently ask him to leave (again). It is somehow different this time. I am peaceful (which scares me a little). I have no idea how my saga will turn out. Only God knows... I just wanted to tell you that I can relate to your story. Amazing how we all live such similar lives.