My last ditch effort to just stay in the parking lot.. I decided i would ask someone going in about the meeting and seating (circle or not, lol). A minute until meeting time. I find this guy who "looked" like he had been there before.
Me: You going to the Alanon meeting
Him: Yes (Great i thought)
Me: How is the meeting?
Him: Idk, i've never been to one (Ugh!!, i thought)
Me: I'm very nervous
Him: Me too
Me: You go in first
After overcoming the initial embarrassment of the group thinking we had come "together" ( i guess i hid behind him too well, lol)
The meeting was PERFECT and just what i needed..
Thanks to all, for your support