Very much understand what you are saying. Feeling the same way here. Recently, I too have removed myself from a similiar situation. Have been sitting on the porch alone for close to a month now. Seems it is easier to stay home than go out and have to answer other people's stupid, insensitive questions.
I am starting to think outside of the box, experiencing things I never thought I would be interested in. So far nothing too exciting, but glad that I took the time to investigate.
It's just too much for me to join the girls down at the wine bar right now. Don't feel much like being in that crowd. Guess I am trapped between not wanting to be a hypocrite, and not wanting to be in the very enviroment that has brought so much sadness and confusion to my life.
Guess we are in the same boat on this. Keep in touch, it's nice to know that we are not alone.