first post, last drink (hopefully)
I have been trolling the site for while and there seems to be genuine people here that want to help and care about each other. That is a beautiful thing.
I am an alcoholic and have been so for about 2 years. I never drank in high school or college and now I can't stop. It is killing my wallet and my babies even realize that daddy drinks. I am not a violent or ignorant drunk but I'm still a drunk and it has got to stop. I'm tired of being an addict, I'm tired of every time I get juice from the fridge for my kids they ask me "is this beer daddy". I'm just tired of being tired and this place is the best place that I can express myself without being judged. I know I can get through this, I just need a little help from the lord and anyone here. I had no idea that alcohol could have the effects that it does and my ignorance to that fact has gotten me in a really bad place.