LostinLV777, I have a friend in outpatient recovery now and though our circumstances are very different, I am having the same feelings that you are experiencing. I am feeling very disconnected from someone I used to see every day, and I don't know how he is doing or what he will be like the next time I see him. I have found reading this forum to be very helpful in learning what recovery is like; everyone here is helpful and caring. Good luck with your journey!