I think I am ready. And I am heartbroken over it, because I do not want to be divorced again. Because yes, I wanted the marriage I was promised. I wanted the man he said he was and acted like for a while there. At least until the certificate was signed.
But I think I am ready. The 50LB chain around my neck is slowly suffocating me. I can't change him, his mindset, his perspectives. But I can change me. I can remove that chain. I know this. I just feel indignant still that I have to do it. He is the one who royally f'ed up this relationship - he should be the one to do the next right thing (let me go). *Foot stomp here*