Wow - beautifully written, thanks for that. It could have been my story too, and I'm sure there are many people that echo that sentiment.
All I can say is that YOU feel fed up with it. It doesn't matter what your sober/recovering friends say about you being alcoholic or not. Whether you are, or not, is irrelevant. You have got tired and bored with this drinking thing, and you want to end it. Bravo. I congratulate you!
This site is pretty much the best thing that ever happened to me. I check in every single day without fail, whether I'm having a good sober day (to share that I'm feeling good), or a bad sober day (where I can ask for kind words of advice or support). We are all behind you and wishing you the best.