I think I have had many bottoms this past year. My final bottom is blacking out every time I drink, that is scary and humiliating. My bottom is that my soul feels robbed and I do not feel like I am living the life I should be. Picking myself up and dusting off for the last time. I was sober for five years before and know how glorious it feels, I was myself. I am going to stop drinking for me and not drink because everyone else expects me to be the party girl. This party girl is getting too old for this..It's My Time...