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Old 06-12-2011, 12:05 AM
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Aysha
Looking For Myself...Sober
 
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Theres a saying that your bottom is when you decide to stop digging. For me I odnt think there is a bottom. Mine is like falling from the top of a tree and hitting branches all the way down. I hit one and think thats it but then it breaks and there I go falling again. Hitting every one all the way down. Unfortunatly I dotnt think I have hit the ground yet. But I dont need to in order to relize I can stop anytime I want by doing what I have to do to get and stay clean. I have been sorta looking for that "moment" to make me get it. It hasnt happened yet and doubt it ever will. The only true "moment" for me will be when I finally surrender 100% and stay commited to recovery.
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