Cheeky you sound like a truly selfless person who puts everyone elses needs before your own. Your post to me is complete evidence of this as I was replying to you on your thread about your situation and yet you offer me help. I think that you really need to realise what an amazing person you are but also need to realise that you also could do with some support. If you read the sticky on 'guilt' (scroll up to the top) I bet you will recogise yourself in the description, I know I did. Thanks for offer of venting and I offer you the same as it seems we have both experienced/are experiencing a similar thing.