serenity777
I don't have any advice for you. I am in the same place. I wish I could stop loving and missing my AH who also was the person I went to when I was hurt or troubled. He was my best friend for a lot of years before all the problems set in. I miss him terribly and the pain is unbearable at times.
When it hits I try and stay busy but in the evening and a night I have a terrible time. I have found that reading and posting on this site helps a little.