Unfortunately, no one ever truly knows why someone commits suicide, and it's always hardest on the ones left behind.
Instead of looking at it as sad and depressing, maybe you could look at it as an amazing testament to the relationships that are forged through the program?
Some of the people in that room might have only known the deceased for a few years, but had such a bond with her, such a respect for how hard her journey was and how she not only handled it but tried to lead others on their journey as well?
Or the idea of how powerless we really are, over everyone, not just the alcoholics?
Or how every day should be treated as though it may be our last, and we should be grateful with every passing sunrise, telling our loved ones we care and living the best we can?
The above is a testament of what the program has done for me. Changed my attitude dramatically.