Why do you do what you do? For me it was love, false hope, duty and the belief I could fix it. After all i was her husband and it was my job to fix it.
We are all here because of we have or are going through the same thing as you. You are not alone and you are not crazy.
Now, something you have probably heard before here but need to here again.
YOU didn't cause it
YOU can't control it
You can't cure it.
You can only take care of yourself.
You will find support, sympathy, wisdom and strength here. Visit often and try al-anon.
You have my prayers.
Your friend,