Peace...It does come in time
Thought I should check in with my updates
Lets see, divorce was final, daughter & granddaughter
move back home with me.
Almost 6 months alone in the house
Had some lonely nights, thats for sure
Wondered how the hell I was going to survive without him
Cried over the broken lawnmower, the weeds, the bills
Have been selling as much as I can to pay the bills
The house is still up for sale
Working lots of hours and working in full circles somedays
with my head caught in a freaking cloud
Rejoicing when its 5oclock and time to come home
I need a part time night job...What to do? What to do?
So I got my head thinking, and Im starting to build a website
and will do that from home at nights
The house is no longer quiet with a baby
The kitchen isnt spotless anymore
Dont have time or the patience for the XAH stupid phone calls
anymore. I have moved onto bigger and better things in life.
Daughter snaps at me & I nicely tell her, "Listen up, I respect
your feelings & where you are walking today and I would appreciate
it, if you respect mine. I just divorced that type of behavior and my
life doesnt need that anymore"
My daughter & I have discussed my changes.
She actually approves!...LOL
She asked me, "How come you werent like this when I lived at home?"
Because, "Mommy, was married to an alcoholic"
I still have my days, where I miss the man I married
But I dont miss the days married to an alcoholic.....
I am really working hard on Letting Go & Letting God
I am really digging deep inside of me
And finding all of the bones that I can find
about what it means to Let Go & Let God...
In everything that I do.....
...Im enjoying peace!