Welcome Kathryn
You'll find a lot of support here
I agree with Anna - why not see your Dr, get a check up, relieve your worries about your health and perhaps ask them about your anxiety/depression?
The way out of the cycle is to stop drinking - please do whatever you can do to get yourself some help.
My perceptions really changed after I had some sober time.
Are you going back to AA? have you tried counselling? thinking of another programme? would rehab be an option?
Hope to see you around some more
D