It sounds like you will come out of all this on top of the chaos. I keep telling myself to take it slow, don't rush into anything, view all aspects and even though I would love to put all the blame on AH I just can't because the recorder in my head plays back some of the ugly things I've said and the mean things I've done that no matter what AH is like I can't justify my actions. It sounds like you're working through this on a good level, you and your son will be all right.