Originally Posted by
barb dwyer 
That's tough to live with.
BUt it's illusion
and you know that.
I know how it eats at you
knowing that you're being lied about
and everyone is buying into it.
But you said yourself that you know the truth.
FOR RIGHT NOW -
that's going to have to be enough.
You don't need an army along with you to do the next right thing.
This is huge:
that's a giant step.
and this:
That's what recovery is.
Putting that back together.
Sometimes what's repaired is stronger than ever in places
and other places...
they're like footprints in mud.
There may be an empty hole for a while but...
They fill in.
So are you going to do the group thing like AlAnon
or therapy or what's the route now?
That's what I hope for, to come out of this a much stronger person and resolve the issues that led me to stay in a chaotic relationship where my needs were not being met.
Therapy, for sure. Once a week. Even considering anti-depressants for a little while, I can't seem to shake the depression and anxiety.
As for alanon, I have been several times but it seems like there is nobody my age there that I can relate to. I live in Los Angeles, so there are tons of meetings here, and I think it's just a matter of finding the right location, but every time I go I always seem to be the youngest person in the room by 30 years. I don't know why that deters me, I guess it really shouldn't...