I'm really doing the best I can to keep it together. You all are right, I really should have known better than to call. Even after telling him how upset I was he is still being hard-headed in his ways, does NOT now how to deal with pain at all. Wants to keep running away from everything because that is what he does; even though I'm not trying to hurt him and rather apologize and just get to a better place with him. But I guess it is what it is. I will keep coming back here and keep going to Al-Anon as I try to get out of this pit. I'm with my mom for about another three months, unfortunately. Going to try the best that I absolutely can.
Bella, I am glad that you bring up therapy because that is something I have really been thinking long and hard about for a while (including pre-breakup with xabf). To those that are going, my biggest concern has been cost. Do the sessions tend to be expensive? Are they covered by insurance usually?