WTBH - You know what I do when I am pi$$ed at myself for engaging? I try and not beat myself up for too long because it just makes it worse. I made a mistake (although the arse that the AH could be sucked me back in) and I try and learn from it and trust me you will learn and you will start engaging less and less. It is a process sweetie and it takes time to learn the new behavior of not engaging. You will get there. Now go tuen on some great music and dance around the kitchen with your 2 cutie pies!!